“All I want this Christmas is to hear them the words that I seek. Maybe if that would happen I’ll be the happiest person who celebrated the Christmas.”


With prideful parents, caring and loving words is unexpected. Parents that prefers to hide feelings rather than expressing it for the betterment. At some point I should say that my parents are acting that way. I’m not into conclusion that they’re bad or complaining that I should have other parents. May be its just so unfair on my part that for how many years, Im always taking actions like saying “I love you and I miss you” to them, and yet replies from those words I uttered wasn’t answered as it should be.

My apology, if I may sound OA with these little senseless sentiments. But I seek those words for how many years which until now its “zero.” Hundreds of questions pierced into my mind why they acting with such approach. They are shy and feel awkward?! But they are my parents and im their son!. If they really shy to say it personally, I have phone! And they have also!?

Sigh… I always end up my text messages putting I love you words many times and years. But replies from them like “ok”, and some time the word “hehe”. I just laugh with it but painful on my part.

I even opened these approaches to my friends already and most of their advice is for me to accept that my parents are like that.

Haaaaay… Do they want me to die first before they speak out those wonderful words to me? Sometimes im longing that I’ll die for hours only, so I’ll see and hear them what they cannot utter to me, but of course, wake up again from the coffin and gladly say to them “those words are wonderful Nay!, Tay! And I waited so long to hear such words.”

But unlike any other parents, they completely provide my needs and they are somehow kind for my expensive wants. I know that they loved me too, in contrast from what I am thinking. But what truly matters for me is expressing love not only by giving stuffs like money and branded clothes every time I asked for it. Well anyways they know me also as an ambitious one, that’s why they’re thinking that giving stuffs that I want is enough.

Another thing, I didn’t hear them saying that they are proud of me. Im thinking that they have a point also because im not that yet to be proud off, since I haven’t done things that could meet their standards yet and what they want me to be. As one very big reason, I can’t make it this March also. huhuhuhu. I have lots of failures that could take them to treat me in cold means.


All I want this Christmas is to hear from them the words that I seek. Maybe if that would happen I’ll be the happiest person who celebrated the Christmas But if they can’t still I’ll wait for the New Year.

I won’t wish to Santa Clause, instead I’ll pray to God.

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They are the kind of group that could make an individual completely happy and a little depressing. They sometimes annoy you by their bullies but they could as well form your mouth close to ears by their jokes. In some ways they stand as brothers and advisers if you’re in the ocean of problems. They correct and criticize your doings, and somehow praise you as a person. Maybe it’s their way of helping one to be a great person.

These people has also different attitude that could make conflicts from each other. Yet so far and so good never came to a point that burning war exist, “cold wars” maybe. Or maybe this is so because my Ate J. really knew how to mix well his sons and daughters. Sigh…

For couple of years, blogging, writing and passing articles is not the only thing I’m doing, if I’m in the office. Ever since bonding to these group is the thing that makes my environment complete. Luckily it is really good to have a group that I have now. I’m just hoping that these people won’t transform quickly to beasts and vampires.

Well, I maybe truthfully not close to some, but it’s still awe-inspiring that they still treat me nicely.


Thanks.

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Breaking up is one of the hardest things to do when you fall in love. Yet sad to say, it really happens. Who do you think will anticipate a hurtful break up if you are in a good, romantic and satisfying relationship? ...No one wants to, right?

Feelings and situations will turn cold, best friends turn to worst enemies, loving quotes change to hurtful words, dreams become impossibilities, chances leads to rejections, memories are converted to nightmares, expectations end up as disappointments and oftentimes, love evolves to hatred.

I always hear my friends saying, “I have to move on, stop fooling myself that I could still have him/her back but how can I get over him/her?” Stand up, do not just get down on your knees. Wipe those falling tears, and do not leave your heart unattended. Instead fix it up.

For a battered and broken heart to get in tacked, here are some of the tips for you to open your mind and in order for you to easily recover. Remember that life is not perfect as well as the person you love. Another thing is that you can never learn to love again if your heart is still broken.

1. Don’t let yourself get drown in the ocean of hatred

Both of you fall out of love and there is a possibility that either you will become friends or enemies. “I’m sorry, maybe were not meant for each other, can we just be friends?” Yes this statement would sound better because both broke up with an option to continue the friendship. Well, it may not be a growing and less effective move; at least you both end up retaining the friendship.

2. Nothing is constant in this world, breaking up is inevitable. Don’t pity yourself.

You must not create a barrier wall between you and your friends. Instead allow them to give their shoulders for you to lean on, because they are willing to help and support you. After all, he is not the only person in this world. Just keep yourself busy and enjoy your life.

3. If there is noting to beg for, then don’t Beg

If possible refrain from the guilt. If you know that there is nothing to beg for, then don’t. Fate will bring you back. Never think that you cannot live without the person you really love. You can do it and bear it in your mind.

4. Don’t entrust your feelings to threat. Don’t be insane and never do commit to foolishness.

“If you leave me, I will kill myself”. If you think threatening your ex will make him/her sorry and if you think that would win her back, then don’t expect too much because it seldom happens. Your foolish action is already a proof that you’re irresponsible and the break up is probably a good idea.

5. What goes around comes around. Don’t try to get back to the person who rejected you.

This is applicable to all MARTYRS all over the world. Words of apologies and goodbyes during break up should be placed on their proper perspectives. No matter how painful the split- up has become, you must not hate him/her or take revenge by humiliating statements for it would be impossible to resurrect friendship.

6. You cannot escape from the problem. Therefore, do not jump to other relationship to cover the pain from the past.

This is applicable to all “mahilig sa panakip butas”. Time heals the wounds. Meaning, you should not hurry to commit yourself to others, if do you know that you are not yet ready and have not still recovered with a certain break- up.

7. Prayer is the most important resolution to all things. Don’t forget to pray.

God is always there to listen, to guide, to give advice and to give blessings on what we are aiming. We should always get ourselves to Him. Let’s keep our hearts open and free from heartaches and worries. God is good all the time, all the time god is good.

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